I find myself sleeping more and more. I’m night tired. I don’t sleep well. I know it’s depression. I know it’s just so I don’t have to face the day.
But anytime I try to ignore that and just push through I’m reminded of why I just stay in the bed.
I’m alone in a house all week. No one to talk to. A response to a text I sent to “friend” here and there. When you stop and look around and realize how alone you are it hurts. I wish there was a way to not feel. I want to not care that I’m alone. I want to not care if I just spend every day by myself with no contact from another human. Besides if no one wants to talk to me why should I care if I hear from anyone?