college, week 2

It is now the 12th night that I will spend away from home here at college. So far it has been okay. I have not had a terrible experience by any means! I have met 3 maybe four people. I really enjoy all of my classes. Other than that though I am secretly struggling. I don’t want to tell my mom and have her worry, I don’t want to tell my friends at other colleges and make them feel bad for me. So I put on this front, this happy persona every time I leave my secluded dorm room I smile, even though on the inside what I am really feeling is scared. I am scared that I won’t be able to make friends. I am scared that I will not meet any guys because I wasn’t exactly good at that in high school either. I miss everything at home. my dogs, my mom, my dad, my siblings, my job, my cheer team. I was not prepared to leave all of it behind but now I don’t have a choice but to power through it. To make the best out of every situation that is thrown at me. I don’t have a choice but to push onward, open the door of my dorm room and smile. 

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