Only a 4 day week at school- not terrible- just too many kids in my classes. We are packed to the fucking walls. I really ended it with Greg this time. I deleted him out of my phone completely. I am fucking done with his ass. I can’t call him if I wanted to because I don’t know his number. I wish I didn’t know Craig’s. haha. It would have saved me a lot of drunk text embarrassment. I just deleted a shit ton of those red necks out of my FB that I accepted friend requests from over the summer. I am cleaning house. I am going to move and get a fresh start. I told my land lord today that I’m leaving at the end of my lease. I need to get on my shit selling the clothes that I don’t want on eBay and I did list some furniture on craig’s list tonight that I need to get rid of. I am going to make my place perfect for me. I am about to change up my shit and stop whining over a goddam teacher. Fuck him. FUCK him. He’s bullshit. He has treated me like a goddam dog. I don’t give a fuck if he’s got cancer- I have been so good to him and he can’t even bother to goddam text me??? FUCK him. I am going to make a new life for myself.
Just Keep Swimming
I am a 48 year old adult child of an alcoholic. My childhood could have been a Lifetime movie. I am dealing with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression as a result. I am working on gaining an understanding as to what this means and learning how to be okay with myself. Some days, just killing myself and being done with it seems like the most sensible option. On those days, I keep telling myself, "just keep breathing in and out, that's enough for today."