a month break, 8/15 to 9/13

It’s been almost a month since I entered my last blog post.

It’s a good sign or the result of improvement that is perhaps the reason why I haven’t been journaling for a month. Overall I feel better and am sleeping better. 

Acceptance is probably a big part to do with it. I believe I’ve been anxiety free for about 6 months too. Even though sleep is on and off, I haven’t awoken with anxiety, which I am thankful for. For some reason today, I felt a bit anxious.

I fell asleep and woke up multiple times between 10:30 and 1:30 tonight, it felt like I was dreaming and getting pretty good sleep. But when I woke up at 1:30, my body felt a bit anxious and the ear sounded a bit different. I needed to go out and sit by the water fountain and journal to feel a bit of relaxation.

This anxiety might be related to the job change I am about to do, some family issues that’s been going on, and perhaps engaging in something that may not be in my best interest. It could also be that I only one 1 tablet of a certain prescription as opposed to two, which is the number I’ve been taking. I will refrain from it the following night to see if it makes a difference.

It could also be I’m a bit fearful of losing friends from my old company, and find it new/challenging with this dating opportunity I have. I just need to tell myself everything will work out and to continue working harder. I have to take this anxiety as a sign that perhaps I’m doing something wrong, or just overthinking again.

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