Hi, I’m Maxwell, I’m sad all the time and I made this account on an impulse because I wanted attention Isn’t that great? Anyways, I’ve heard that talking about “it” makes you feel better, but I’m afraid of doing it to people I know personally because they always start to treat me weird, like a I can’t handle myself, and I fear that a close friend would feel they would have to be “strong” for me and bundle up their own feelings in an attempt to do so. I just don’t want to hurt people, but I often contradict myself. I’m not a good person.
I don’t know why I’m sad a lot, I just am. It’s really some petty shit, honestly. It’s kind of off and on, too, so some days I am resistant to everything while others—like today—I genuinely want to curl up and die. It’s fun.
I get nervous of getting nervous sometimes and start crying. Not in front of other people, of course, then I just rapidly breathe and hold in my meaningless tears until it hurts.
How are you all feeling tonight? Good, I hope, if not, I hope it gets better.