I started university yesterday.
In the evening I thought a lot about my life, how it’s going to change and what I even want to do with it. Is the university I picked the right one for me? Will I drop out like my brother did? What would I do with myself if I drop out?
I know this thoughts are not what you would expect someone who just started a new, exciting chapter of their life to have, but yesterday was not at all what I expected it to be.
It started well, I woke up, ate breakfast and went to school. There we were greeted by the dean, some other people gave us necessary information (about lessons, other activities,…) and that was it. What? I’ve spent about 30 minutes in school on the first day. What do I do for the rest of the day? I know some people who go to the same University and one of them, who is taking the same classes as I do is also my roommate. We went to grab a coffee together, then we went to buy groceries and then we went on a tour of everyone’s rooms. I came back home and it was barely past noon. It wasn’t even lunch tome yet. After doing stuff for what seemed like a long time I somehow still had the whole day to spend. What do I do now? I study in a small tourist town with many hotels and there is not much to do there other than sit in a bar or go to the beach. The bars are expensive for a student’s budget and the day was rainy so swimming was also out of question. How did I spend the rest of the day? I read for a while, then I played video games, ….that was it. The reason I am writing about it in such a negative way is that this was not what I expected. I don’t want to spend my days doing nothing, I want to do something with my life. But I have no idea what to do with it. Another reason is that my brother dropped out of university two years before because of this exact reason – he had nothing do in his spare time and I don’t want to make the same mistake and follow his steps. All of this negative thinking made me doubt my decision to go to this university in the first place. Do I actually want to work in this field when I graduate? Is this career path that will make me happy or will I become just another adult with a boring life and a job they don’t want to do?
This was only the first day and I believe that my thoughts and opinions on my life will change when the lessons start and I meet new people and start doing stuff. Look, even by starting this blog I got a hobby and I have something to do with my time.
I will try to write here every day but I am not promising you anything. Maybe if I stop writing here it means that I am busy doing stuff and enjoying life.