For years I’ve trained and prepared myself for the adult life I wanted. My parents always stressed that what I do in the present will influence in my future, and to have a good future, I needed to plan now. I’m now 25, engaged, with a job in my field straight out of University. Yet after having everything I dreamed of having at this age, I still feel… not so much empty, but dull. My work I aspired to do has become a daily battle. When I’m not working, I am lost in what to occupy my time with. Friends is such a foreign concept since I’ve dedicated my focus to having this marvelous future, I have no one to call for a coffee just to chat. Even if I am blessed with someone to chat with other than my fiance, I have nothing to say. My brain is filled with information about my field, my future, and the things I need to do to get there. I dont have interests which spark conversation. I dont have knowledge on current events or pop culture to hold a debatable conversation. I’m feeling like a blank machine in the system of life. Not thinking, or breathing the air. Just a vessel filling a position in life having no effect on anyone or anything around me. I miss 2 years ago when a I could do was smell the pleasures of life. How the world intrigued me beyond belief and I was interested in being a part of every moment. Where did that person go?