I keep running through the moment in my mind. What would have to happen in order for me to see in, in order to be held by him. To feel him, to be close to him. I draw a breath a the thought. But maybe it wouldn’t be everything I hope it could be. But then maybe it will. However what if I do decide to explore the option and lose when I have because if it. Have w greedy of me to throw something wonderful away simply out of curiosity and the mystery of it. But maybe I won’t have to make that choice, maybe a chance will present itself. However what if this Love I’m in now now never runs out? Although that doesn’t sound like such a bad thing, I’d never get an answer. I would never know what it feels like to be loved by him. To know him now. Would taking a chance like that be living or throwing my life away?
I write my thoughts in times of stress and discomfort. Accepting the feelings brings me peace and stillness. I am not yet ready to claim my work because I am afraid, but please comment and share your thoughts. Conversation nurses growth.