Wll get to go talk about me again she always tries to get me play some video game Mary is her name she knows I don’t like video games I would rather be outside,
We talked about school again I don’t get it I like school I do good get in school detention some but only because I get tradies . Then we talked about mom
Mary: do you miss her
Me: of course I do
Mary: are you still mad at her
Me: I was never mad at her she didn’t die on purposes she was sick.
Mary: How do you feel your dad and how do you feel about the way he was raising you.
Me: I never thought about it.
She finally ask me why I missing a boot. I told her I lost my boot at school today. She ask how so I told her the whole story.
Mary: how do you feel about missing your boot.
Me: (I was like duh what do you think I didn’t say it) I told her well it makes me mad someone took it.
Mary: did it embarrass you
Me: No it made me mad why would I be embarrassed
Mary: I mean cause you are wearing one
Me: No why would I be embarrassed
Mary: some people would because it sticks out (not how she worded it but close enough well what I heard anyways)
Me: I’m not everyone I’m me
Mary: what are you going to do about it
Me: what do you mean I’m going to look for it tomorrow at school
Mary: what are going to do if you find who took it
Me: get it back I hope I’m not like going to fight over it if that’s what your asking
Mary: So your not mad
Me: I’m not happy but not going to get in trouble over it, do we really have to talk about a stupid boot. I don’t need it and just because everyone else wears two don’t mean I have two,
Mary so you just don’t care
Me: I didn’t say that I said it makes me mad someone took it but I’m good with wearing one I don’t have to be like the crowd I like being different.
Me: I’m me I don’t need to acted like anybody or look like anybody else not even dress like anybody else. If I don’t find my boot Then I’m good with walking around with one why do I need two just because everyone said. all my skate shoes the right ones are all messed up the left ones look new so they don’t match and even fall off there are so many holes in them. Adults spend their time saying be yourself it is ok to be different don’t following the crowd, but if you do something different are don’t fit in the adults ideal of what you should do are be like then the rules change.
Mary: well it sounds like you are trying to find yourself
Me:(thinking what does that even mean) OK
Mary: well I want to visit with your dad so I will see you next week you can go out in the waiting room and play video games
Me: (think how many times do I have to say I don’t play video games) ok
Mary never told me she wanted to visit with dad after we meet so I guess she didn’t like something I said are maybe I’m too weird to come back