Hello again sister mine. I heard from the anti Christ yesterday. Should find something nicer to call him but hey… I think it rings true. I don’t think his marriage is working out like he thought it would. You know the old saying where boys don’t realize they made a mistake till a long time after. The good old one that got away. He said he was sorry about everything. He said he made mistakes, wanted to get it off his chest. I don’t want to know he’s sorry now.. why wasn’t he sorry before he got married? before he had a kid with someone else? I wish he would just keep it to himself. He cant go back now. Its been 2 or 3 years. I’m happy now. It took 2 or 3 years to get here so why come in an mess it all up. I don’t want to think about him. I don’t want to think about the what ifs. I don’t want to wonder what his texting out of the blue means. We cant go back. There is no reset button. I haven’t gotten to love anyone else like he has. We were together 5 years. He threw it away like it was nothing. He did everything with her that we were supposed to do. He knew I wanted to get married instead of be just engaged. He knew I wanted kids. I don’t want to obsess over this. I wish he would just keep it to himself.
Miss you always,