Yesterday I was crying, because the next day is Monday, again intolerable everyday life and I do not want to live like that. I really do not think that I will ever like any work. I feel sick because life is meaningless. It drives me crazy that life is as arranged as it is, economic relations, political relations, people are looking for meaning in life in children, this is not normal.
Maybe I just started an adult life and I just haven’t figured it out yet. But I’m sick of life and I don’t know what to do. Now I just persuade myself that the work is temporary and I just earn money to change everything. In any case, it will work out or not, what we have conceived, but I will leave this job and try something else.