I meant to tell you something in that last post but I had to get my thoughts out and I rambled on.   My point was. 

I trust your an honest man to me.  

I trust your a good man to me.  

I trust you have my best interest at heart.  

I trust that you really do care about me.  

And that’s why I shouldn’t be scared right.  I just have to trust the right people.  You have been honest with me from the start.  Just because you might have done things that you think may have made me think differently you never told me differently.  You never felt it I never felt it from you.  But you were always honest.   Painfully honest but honest all the same.  And I need that.  I don’t want to be told what I want to hear same as you.   And you’ve never told me what I wanted to hear.  You’ve never went back on what you said.  Over time what you said proved to be true.  And that said more than a couple of times you were comforting me.  The point is.  You were honest.  You cared enough to want to help me.  Honestly help me.    I’m glad your im my life I owe it to you.  I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.  I need to really take time and make sure our plan won’t hurt you.  I need to be fuckin sure of it.  I just want to know.  You truly want to do this for me and with me.  Get through it and help me like you want to.  Not because you think you have to fix something your blaming yourself for.  Not because fuck all that I just want to know that you know you don’t have to.  Literally.  You can walk away and I’ll do my part I’m leaving you alone forever.  I pinky fucking promise I respect you so much.   I’m out of sight now and can be out of mind too.  I promise you you don’t have to do this.   I’m not your responsibility.  I need to know that you believe that.  That you truly think we both have something to offer each other and you think I might be of some help too.  Even just a little.  I care about you so much.  I didn’t want to hurt you the from the beginning and look what I did.   I don’t want you to get hurt because of me. And you don’t have to fight this fight with me it’s not your fault.  I have to do what’s best for you.  I just love you to much. 

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