i really felt like writing an entry, so here i am.
there were 3 comments on my last entry and i really appreciate all of them, thank you guys for reading and trying to help me with my problems. also, user “savedbygrace”, i think it’s really amazing that you are such an amazing christian. thanks for giving that receipt, it really is inspiring.
i, myself, am not that religious to be honest. but i have always been interested in it, and seeing people who are very loyal to their religion really makes me feel great. i don’t know why, it’s probably weird.
oh also, i have a question for you guys.
do you think it is possible to develop romantic feelings for someone you have never met in real life and know so little about? my friend has been going through something similar to this and i want to know what you guys think about it.
school is nice, i guess. classes are hard and boring most of the time, and i always find myself daydreaming or deep in thought instead of listening to the teacher, but i just can’t help it. my thoughts always shift to something else and i just get lost in them.
also, why the heck is french so hard?! i can’t do french anymore, i quit. IT’S SO HARD. i don’t understand a single thing. i will have to study really hard for the exam or i will miserably fail.
my friend has a “fanbase”. sounds absurd, i know, but some freshmen love and adore her deeply and i think it’s cute in some way. i wish people liked me like that too, but i don’t get much attention from those who are around me. i am used to being “invisible” though.
yesterday, i was home alone and i was feeling really bad, listening to slow songs and well, although i am embarrassed to say that, i was crying. i tried to boost up my mood by singing upbeat songs and everything but it just didn’t help.
my mom came home and noticed me crying, so we had a talk with her for almost an hour, and i’ve gotta say; it felt SO good. i usually can’t open up with people easily, but she is my mother after all and i know she will love me no matter what, so it was really easy and calming to tell her my worries. she even told me that if i ever wanted to see a therapist, i could! so ever since yesterday i am feeling a bit better. it’s nice, really, to have such an amazing mom.
also i realized that i love this place. this website is full of positivity and love, it makes me feel really, REALLY nice. i don’t interact with many people because school keeps me really busy nowadays, but i will try and read many entries and comment whenever i have free time.
everyone is so nice here and even though we all have our own problems, we always try to help each other out and i think it’s amazing. i love this website and yeah, i don’t want to be cheesy.
anyway, i will see you guys sometime soon. take care, love you!