Wednesday October 10th

OMG, I am taking off tomorrow. It actually helped my mood some today knowing I didn’t have to be at school tomorrow. That place is a goddam zoo. I am so fucking OVER it. Fucking fights everywhere, all the time. Admin? Uh, what the fuck do they do? Nothing. Fucking nothing. I am still seriously considering taking a leave. I need to figure out what I’m doing. We have 140 more days with kids. I honestly don’t know how I will survive. Maybe blowing a lot of sick days. I have 2 more emergency days after tomorrow, and I have 2 more personal days. I will definitely take all of those. I hate to spend my sick days, but damn, I just don’t think I can do it. I know I’m going to end up coming to blows with that fucking department chair, too. I really cannot deal with dumb ass adults right now. The dumb ass kids are killing me. When my principal threw me under the bus when I got into it with the dept chair, that was pretty much the final straw. I really hope I can get another job. Surely to shit I can get a job somewhere. 

I went to my new place tonight and built the kitchen cart. It took about an hour or so to do. It looks pretty good, I think. I need to go to Home Depot or Lowes and get some wooden drawer pulls for it. My place is NASTY. I need to go over there and SCRUB. I guess I can do that Saturday some and Sunday some. I have big plans tomorrow to buy stuff- the recliner in Lawrenceburg and the bookshelves in Richmond. I still need an end table. I wanted that little cherry table but the guy doesn’t seem to want to sell it too bad, since he won’t respond to my messages. Ugh. I just have to be patient, then, if I can’t get that one and wait for one I like. I LOVE that cabinet I’m getting for my bedroom. 

I could have cried at school today after that end of the day fight. I am just so exhausted with that place. I feel like I might have a complete melt down. 

One thought on “Wednesday October 10th”

  1. Sounds like you’re really spiraling in on this job. Yes, maybe you do need to think about leave for your own mental health, to let you reset.

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