Music is my escape. I’ve been acting so happy but really I’m in so much pain. What people don’t know is that I haven’t eaten in 4 days. I’m hungry but not. To describe how I feel, the song Empty by Boyinaband is a good example. I hate my body. I’m told that people want my body, and I tell them that I’m sick but they say that they are proud of me for staying this skinny. No one knows that it’s because I don’t eat. I cry a lot.  Silently. I want help but I also don’t want it. The hunger feels good. I’m addicted to the feeling. I’m at 95 lbs. I’m sorry….. 

3 thoughts on “10/12/18”

  1. Please, eat. If you were to keep going like this, you would die of starvation. No matter how much the pain and hunger feel good, you’re making your body suffer. When you want to start eating again, your body will gain more weight because it will be trying to prepare for the next time it would be starved of food and nutrients. Start to eat more slowly, with just one meal a day, or a little under that just make sure you don’t rush into eating again too quickly, because that will be painful.

    You don’t have to be skinny to be an amazing person, or to be beautiful.

    I hope that this helps!

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