Music is my escape. I’ve been acting so happy but really I’m in so much pain. What people don’t know is that I haven’t eaten in 4 days. I’m hungry but not. To describe how I feel, the song Empty by Boyinaband is a good example. I hate my body. I’m told that people want my body, and I tell them that I’m sick but they say that they are proud of me for staying this skinny. No one knows that it’s because I don’t eat. I cry a lot. Silently. I want help but I also don’t want it. The hunger feels good. I’m addicted to the feeling. I’m at 95 lbs. I’m sorry…..