Every time I think I have things figured out when it comes to my heart something happens to make me even more confused. A little bit of background might help no I’m not gonna go into my life story. July 1st I tried to OD on prescription meds and spent a week in the hospital recovering under very watchful eyes. I lost myself putting everyone else before me and paid the price with my depression. I have definitely learned from that experience. Before that, I had a long distance Dom that I fell in love with and he fell in love with me but neither of us can relocate. Since my suicide attempt the man that I have been in and off again relationship, not to mention the father of my children, has really stepped up for me and is putting forth the effort to actually work on our relationship. He is starting to remind me why I fell in love with him all those years ago. Then there is my current Dom/Domme. We have been friends for a while and have a natural attraction towards each other. I have once again found myself falling in love again. My heart is being pulled in 3 different ways and I don’t know what to think or what to do… Please, no rude comments. And I know ultimately I’m the only one that can decide but I would like others input. Am I the only one that has ever had this happen? I truly am confused and I hate being confused.
In my eyes I'm just the average single mother of a teenager that is a full time caregiver for her parents. But when you ask someone very important to me this is what he says "That you are beautiful, amazing, and an awesome mother. You are incredibly loved and one of the most incredible people on the planet."