I went to school today. I was so frustrated with the kids 7th period, I felt like crying. They will not shut the fuck up for anything. I don’t know what happened to this class. They started out as a decent class, now they are terrible. Ugh. I thought I might be able to make it until the end of the year after the weekend off, but one day back, and I’m already losing it again. I really don’t know how I’m gonna be able to take it. I think I will need to take a leave of absence soon. I will wait until I go to my next appointment with Heather on the 25th. I am going to have to ask someone to watch my kids the last 30 minutes of school so I can get to the appointment. I can’t be working when I apply for retirement, so I will have to be on leave. I am about to lose my freaking mind. I think it’s a combination of a horrible situation, my depression, anxiety, PTSD, and the mess that my outside of work life is in. I am going to try to get the retirement. It can’t hurt to try.
I texted my new landlord today and asked him to tell me what I owe him for October since he said he would charge me for a partial month. He did not respond. I am hoping he will take the amount I’m spending on the stove as at least part of the payment. I really wish he would tell me to just forget about it. That would really help me out. I have ran up a ton of debt fixing up the place. I know I shouldn’t have done that, but oh well. I need money so badly.