I need to come up with a place to live a vehicle and phone. And better job. And I need it all ASAP. I just do y know how to make it happen. I’m trying so fucking hard and I’ve been so busy with court shit. That was probably his plan. That’s what he said last night. Why I can’t see them. Because o don’t have a place for them. It is going to make all the difference in my case. Fuck. It’s all so overwhelming and I’m so far behind I don’t know if I’ll ever get there. I just wish I had my own space. I haven’t felt like I’ve had a place to go in so long now. Ever since I moved from my home in Oklahoma. Not having a place to belong. Or to feel safe and comfortable do you know what that can do to a person? I have nothing but the “things” I brought back in his car. Nothjng.