In an effort to feel okay during times of upset, he wrote notes and carried talismans. He would write prayers on post its, fold them and put them in his pockets. As he walked he would put his hands in his jeans and weave the prayers through his fingers as if asking for care in helping things along.
He used symbols, too. Icons scrawled on the palm of his hands with markers or initials running along his fingers. These things helped cleanse his thoughts and expel them for a time from his confused and fearful mind.