Why are some guys such douche bag assholes?
I’m still livid.
Last night, I was hanging out with some of my class mates. It was a big study group thing going on, and I need to keep up with all my studies so I stayed late. There is this guy, Griffin, who was helping me out a lot. He helped me catch up on missed notes, and a missed midterm, etc. We ended up leaving the coffee house around 1AM. This is a 24 hour coffee house near campus that caters to students pulling all nighters, so when we left there were still a lot of people there. I told him thank you for the help, and told him I would buy him lunch the next day as a thank you. He offered to walk me home since it was late, but I told him that I lived a few blocks away and I’d be fine. But he insisted so I agreed. As we were walking he started to comment on how attractive he thinks I am, how I caught his eye the moment I walked into class, and all this other bullshit I wasn’t trying to hear. I told him that I was flattered but I had a boyfriend. He then said something like “well does that matter?” and I was a little taken back by his honesty. Then he tells me that he isn’t trying to take my boyfriend’s place, he just wants to have “fun”. Then I kind of laughed because to me it sounded so fucking stupid. But he took it as me giggling or taking a liking to the idea. So as we continue to walk to my place he starts to get handsy, and tries to ‘tickle’ me, and I’m pushing him off. Then before I know it he slides his hand underneath my shirt and gropes my breasts, and grabs my ass from behind, and he tried to kiss me. He literally went in for the kiss, but I turn to the side, and shove him off. I couldn’t really reason what just happened. I ask him what the fuck his problem is, he then gets cocky and tells me that I had been flirting with him all night, that I let him walk me home which means I “must” want his dick, etc. When he said that I laughed out loud, it was just reactionary because of how stupid he is and what had just happened – I DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO REACT. So when I laughed he then smiled (I guess he thought I meant I was ok with it) and he grabs my arm and tries to kiss me again. I literally push him away, and gets mad and calls me a ‘cock tease’ so I tell him to fuck off. And I start to walk away (I wanted to run) and he shoves me from behind, and I fall forward, and he calls me a fucking ‘cock tease’. And then starts to call me all of these horrible names in the middle of the sidewalk, no one else around. My heart was pounding in my chest, and I was afraid since we’re alone, but then this car pulls over and an older man gets out and he asks me if I’m okay. I’m on the floor crying too scared to move, and Griffin then leaves without saying anything. I thank God that man pulled over. I was going to go straight home because I was already shocked, disgusted, and teary eyed but I wanted to burst out crying. The man told me not to go home and instead call the police and make a report. He stayed with me, offered me his coat, etc, and I made a police report.
The last thing I wanted was to come home in the back of a police car, especially with my fucking cunt landlord to assume whatever else he must think of me.
As soon as I got home I bursted into tears, and was so angry that he felt it was ok to put his hands on me. I couldn’t believe it. The first person I called was my boyfriend, I called him sobbing loudly and I told him what happened. Ayato was so fucking pissed, he was yelling me to tell him who the guy is, etc. I just wish I could be with him, I hate being so far away from him. Then I called my mom and told her what happened, and my dad too, and I told them I filed the police report. So my dad is probably going to come tomorrow, he wants me to press charges, and we have a family lawyer my dad is meeting tomorrow.
I just want this fucking nightmare to be over.
I kind of don’t want to press charges because I want to pretend like this whole incident didn’t happen. I don’t want to think about it. It overwhelms me and makes me want to fucking cry. I told my dad I didn’t really want to press charges and he was really upset, which is why he’s coming from Colorado with our family lawyer/friend to convince me to press charges. I told Ayato I didn’t want to press charges and he was livid, started yelling about how Griffin will do this to someone else if I don’t.
I just want to pretend this didn’t happen.