I cooked.

Today I cooked for the first time in close to two weeks. Yay me! Luckily I had some pre-cut veggies so I made a stir fry for lunch! I’ve been obsessing over anti-inflammatory diets so it seemed like a good idea. Luckily, I eat fairly good but there’s always improvements to be made and at this point, I’ll do whatever it takes to make even the smallest improvements to my chronic pain levels. Anyways, that was my win for today.

I’m also obsessing over moving. It’s 8 months away but as I learned last year, time flies. And this year, moving is no longer a maybe, it’s a must. But I’m a research fanatic and finances are no exception. I have nickled and dimed my expenses down to the penny. The reality is that being disabled is a bitch and help is hard to find. According to every housing and finance assistance program, I make “too much”. How is that possible? With the bare minimums being my phone, car and Medicare, I don’t even have enough leftover to afford a one bedroom apartment! I hate having to rely on my parents for help, until now, I haven’t asked for anything since I moved out at 18 and I certainly didn’t plan for that to change. And as my Mom likes to remind me, they can’t help me forever so… What the hell do I do? I’m at a loss. I honestly have no idea where to go from here…

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  1. I can remember a time in the early years of our marriage and even after we had a couple of kids that we literally had no food in the house. After paying our bills, or at least the ones we could, there was never any money left for much food. So, I tried to get assistance, food stamps they called them back then, and was told my husband made too much money. I was so mad!! The system fails those who truly need that bit of help. Then I would go to the grocery store to get hardly nothing and have to see all the people with two carts FULL of food, a lot of junk food, and paying with food stamps that they were able to get because 1. they weren’t married and 2. they had a lot of kids. I’m not saying they shouldn’t get them but really, two carts full? I would have been happy with half a cart full. Then another time when we tried to get help they said we couldn’t because our car was worth too much. It was a used Astro mini van. Somehow we got through those times but they were hard and I wouldn’t go back for anything.

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