Begin again

          Earlier today, I got a message from an old friend that I used to work with. I haven’t talked to him for so long, not since I quit my job. We didn’t exactly end in good terms but we’re starting it over today.
          My last job required us to withstand a whole lot of stress, pressure, and anxiousness, like any other jobs I would think. So, a lot of newcomers like myself quit during training or a bit after working on our own. My group started with almost 10 people, but next thing we know, it was only he and I left from our bunch. We grew closer together because we had to be each other’s support from then. Staying awake on night shifts was one of the issues, definitely for me. So, we called and messaged each other every single workdays to make sure we’re still up LOL.
          Then, I started getting too burnt out. I stopped being excited for work, and I felt miserable everyday knowing I have to go back. He was the last person I wanted to tell because every time I bring up the idea of leaving, he kept telling me to stay and not to quit on him. He once said to me that I’m a very smart girl and he’s sure I’ll make it through the hard part soon. I had different nicknames from him daily, like, Brains, Miss straight A’s (which is false haha), IQ, and Wikipedia. Well, anyone that knows me knows that I’m a sucker for flattery remarks about brainpower. Like Cristina Yang said, “if you want to appease me, compliment my brain.” Haha! Anyway, he always found a way to talk me back into it every time. I guess he was a big reason why I even stayed as long as I did.
          So, the day that I quit, I didn’t have the heart to tell him. I was already depressed enough, and I didn’t want to say another goodbye. He knew nothing until he texted me that night asking if I was working. I replied no, and said I wanted to meet up with him tonight or tomorrow, but he already knew what I was going to say. He left me with “I wish you would’ve talked to me before you decided.” He didn’t contact me back for so long after that. I guess he was too mad that I didn’t keep the word of not quitting on each other.
          But anyway, today, he messaged me after forever. We talked for hours catching up on one another. I thought it would be awkward after how we ended things, but it felt so good to talk to him again. He still jokes (kinda) for me to go back working there. He told me he’d still be there if I come back. He said he missed me and work is so boring without my smartass LOL. It made me feel so good. All the good memories from our past just replayed in my head. Then, he asked if I was free for lunch tomorrow. And that’s when my heart really just dropped to the ground. Whaaat!?! I became so excited, it took me forever to type ‘yes’ and hit send. We’re probably just going to catch up some more but I haven’t seen him for a while, and I’m so nervous! What to wear? Oh god, what to wear!? Wish me luck! I definitely will need it.

Best wishes,

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