So, after the mess Landon has been in lately emotionally, I was able to get him in to see his pediatric psychiatrist a little earlier than scheduled. When I woke him up he didn’t want to go and drug around a bit but once he got up he was fine. The whole hour and fifteen minutes it took for us to get there he was saying how he couldn’t believe his “girlfriend’s” dad wouldn’t let them talk anymore, he couldn’t believe she was gone, he misses her…on and on. We were 10 minutes or so late getting there but thankfully they saw him anyway. I asked to talk to her first by myself so I could tell her what has been going on with him and then she talked to him for a while by himself. She is trying him on a new medicine for anxiety but he is on the maximum dose of Prozac that he can take. She also changed his dosage on his sleep medicine because I think a lot of his problem is that he is not getting enough sleep and seems tired all the time. Normally, he only sees his doctor every two months but she was worried enough that she wants to see him again in three weeks to see how he is doing on the new medicine.
I’m not sure if we are going to do any school today. I know we should and need to but neither one of us is feeling it. He has been asking me to play this online game with him and I think I am going to do that…do something together that he enjoys.
I just want Landon to be happy. I want him to feel at peace in his body. I want him to have friends and even a girlfriend eventually. I want to feel like I’m doing all that I can do to make all this possible for him.