Car doors locked normally when I arrived and left host church. I think he is playing with them remotely to let me know he can get in my car whenever he desires.
Cats getting sick I’m at home. I can smell something like deodorizer spray I rarely use in the house because my cat has allergies and they aren’t good to breathe in. I think he’s here. Thought I heard something before cat started puking. Figured he’d already be inside since I couldn’t tell if I were followed this morning, but I wonder if he maybe just got here after I sat down to journal .7.55am. freezer door wasn’t open when I got here. Hearing footsteps, very slow, one every few minutes. Either that or it’s the door. How he can use the back door idk I jammed the lock and have to take it to locksmith to fix. Unless he’s been here and in the attic? IDK. Useless trying to find him. 260lb and I can’t find him in my house. How is this remotely possible? If not for the evidence I would think I’m nuts…
I’m feeling sick, tired and disinterested in doing anything. I’m pretty sure it’s chemical of some sort. 8.48.
2.26 he’s in here. I can hear movement. Thought he left for the day. Hope he couldn’t get to the car. IDK what he’s doing I took shower and didn’t think he was still in the house then. Maybe he left and came back.
Front bedroom smells like his sweat. Haven’t looked to see what he’s doing in there.
My legs, feet, and arms and hands are hurting. It almost feels like I slept at home. Hands look a little swollen. My head also hurts, eyes are pained and they are getting painfully dry. Skin is very dry. My neck and throat are also beginning to hurt again. I guess more bruises are coming to the surface.
Checked for footprints at back door, nothing. I didn’t look at the roof though. I think he uses the windows. I have seen big mess on roof with snow for years but never realized someone was on the roof. He prefers the doors but will use whatever means to get in and has said before that he wants to get in my house through the windows.
Coming to host church I noticed a van behind me, white with red stripes, also saw a white truck pass by when I was turning into driveway. IDK if green were in either of those vehicles, never know what he is driving. This would have been around 6.15
Polyurethane on the floor has been sanded off in newer places. There’s a large area in dining room I noticed it years ago, mentioned it to green, a few months after I moved in. I did that he said…also noticed finish sanded off the built in China cabinets. They were so beautiful once, I was so proud of the woodwork in here, now the doors don’t fit right and hinges seem to be off. There’s not a thing in this house he hasn’t messed with. Setting pattern.
Checked out basement a little, noticing the wood beams are cracking in spots, and the knots in the wood are being carved out with either a small screwdriver or dental tool. Ppl have said that’s a normal occurrence, but I say this house was built in 1924, why all of a sudden is this happening and didn’t before.
Looks like a brick on the bottom next to the floor is literally being carved out behind the toilet. One must look closely to see that it’s not just happening, there are little marks in it from a tool of some sort. He tries to make it look natural, so one must inspect the area carefully. Geesh when will they pick him up so I can get on with repairs and get a renter to help with bills.
There’s a crack in my wall underneath my room. A steam pipe runs through this wall, and I believe someone is either jumping on the radiator or heavy person is standing on it .I’ve noticed for years it seems the ratiators are sinking into the floor or having so much weight, warping the floor beneath them. Again, this is simply not a natural occurance. Radiators sit in buildings for years and never sink or warp the floor beneath. Also the wood is carved out between the grooves under the radiators, and when they leak the water goes through to the subfloor. He told me he wanted to wreck my house. He wants me in an apartment, I hated living in apartnents.
I remember he told me he caused my knee to go out, and also my kneecaps were off to the side of my leg when I woke up, and claimed responsibility for all aches and pains I experience. I didn’t believe him then, and said why would you do that? I need to be independent and don’t want to be in a nursing home, I don’t have anyone to help take care of me and don’t want to. He said he will take care of me. He said let’s go to Ohio and get married.
Grey truck with white bed and windows was parked on the street beside the apartments, that was strange. It was there for a few hours and a white thin male drove off. I can’t help but wonder if he’s a friend of greens. Green sometimes parks there, kinda like an Fu to the ppl across the street who look out for my property. No one sees him get in or out of the vehicles that I’m aware of! If he’s parked around here he’s either in my house or in the lesbians house.
At the church last night put on new PJs bought for me, I left them in the car yesterday. The collar on the shirt is stretched. He got into my car even with all the eyes on it, either at my house or intake ccr. What else did he do to my car? Lord please let today be the day.
Large dark truck followed me at different points yesterday, I think it’s brown? Idk it Followed me to host church right on my tail. It was on my tail when I was on o. D. Heading toward freeway and on my tail again on eur.
Remember seeing phone books in my bedrooms when I woke up. I remember green telling me he wished I would keep them instead of throw them away because he uses them on me. I was puzzled, but didn’t ask what he does with them. Recall seeing them in other odd places, such as on tables, even chairs. For a long time I was OCD and kept everything in it’s place, and I couldn’t figure out why these weren’t where they belonged, especially since they were rarely used! I also remember a few paperback Bibles with broken binding, just overnight the covers were frayed and glue came loose from the binding, at times pages were in the wrong place of the book. Many times I recall hurting and having headaches when I saw these items out of order. I remember a few phonebooks that looked like they had been used to hit something. Setting pattern. I remember green hitting me with a folder that had some papers in it, and recall him clearly saying oops that’s not gonna hurt ya and laughing. Beside my bed at my house I’ve noticed Bibles and even catechism on the floor next to the bookcase, out of place, and looking like they were used to hit something. All that jarring and hitting my head, I’m sure my brain was swelled, I’m careful how much I drink to avoid hangovers and brain swell, and now I wonder if there’s damage to my brain cells from being hit over and over. Can I come back from this at my age? I know he hated that I wanted and tried to be successful, when I went back to college he was upset! IDR what he said but I remember the tone, the look on his face and thinking why is he trying to control me? Often I had car trouble when I was in college, many flat tires and rims also had to be replaced, spark plugs replaced and then come loose and unusually dirty, fluids removed, broken windows and stereo stolen. He did claim to breaking my windows and taking stereo, but there were people who did that in the neighborhood. But, what better way to pass the buck right? He claimed a lot of car damage over the years, why should I doubt him? Why doubt anything he said he’s done? Some things could have just happened, but why would he say he did it? Doesn’t make sense.