[507] ~*Fri – 03/29/19*~

[10:17 pm]

I got super upset after work today. I don’t know if I was right to get that upset but I sure did. I had to call my friend before picking up my client cause I just needed to get it off my chest as I felt like I was going to breakdown which I did once I started talking. 

So we had this training/refresher at work yesterday and the trainer did a sorta ice breaker thing where he asked us to share our phobia with the class. First, I think a personal phobia is not something that should be shared with random strangers so easily but what ever, right? I don’t really have any phobia or fear per say so I was trying to figure out what to say and since I’m very scared of the wind, I said I was scared of the wind. He asked if I meant hurricane or tornado and I said, not necessarily that, I just don’t like the wind point. So that was that. Today people came at me and started blowing in my face and at first I was like, the hell?! Are you guys throwing me kisses or what?! NO! They were blowing in my face cause the trainer told the new class of today about my fear of wind. LIKE SERIOUSLY? Now you’re going to talk about it with other classes and make them do this to me. I just couldn’t take it. I called my friend and broke down as I feel I’m being harassed and laughed at for my fear. He surely didn’t send any clowns to the person who was scared of clowns so why this?! I really don’t understand it and I want to go see him on Monday and tell him that this is not okay. I don’t understand why he had to share my fear with other classes and why I have to be made fun of like this. I don’t think this is right at all. I don’t want to be THAT person but I think I should be saying something about it. Should I?!

So yea, after this I just didn’t felt like going to get my client. I just had a headache and wanted to go home. I wish I didn’t have to take clients anymore cause I can’t handle it as my mental state is already getting a hit from my full time job.

By the end of the night, I couldn’t breath anymore and couldn’t wait to get home to puke out some mucus as when I got in the car, I took my inhaler but it didn’t help. I puked twice already and I still have a really hard time with my breathing. This is just not a good day for me.

Time to end the day and head to bed.


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